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|Friday, May 7th, 2004|
i go wild cause u break me open
wild cause u left me here
i go wild, cause your promises are broken
tell me what u come for
moving like a hunter through my backdoor
leaving the perfume of all you adore
to die nameless on my floor
well we both know that u dont play fair
i guess u really think that u get me there
lets be honest perhaps this little ride
is too much for even u to bear
*you've got some nerve to come back here*
you're not the only one who can smell fear
i go wild cause u break me open wild
cause u left me here
i go wild cause your promises are broken
wild dont you get it dear
you're not the only one who lives on instincts
no i've got instincts of my own
you've got alot of nerve to come back
plan yor attack yeah i am still waiting
did u want something
u wrote the rules to try to contain me
u broke 'em now you have untamed me
i go wild
tell me what you've come for
what is it u adore
wont u tell me
what would u cry for
swallow your pride for
what would you..... go wild for
And I'm moving out of my house into my own apartment in a few hours....
|Wednesday, April 21st, 2004|
Well, two weekends ago, something happened at Jess' house after Easter dinner that was so funny. I wanted to update to share the funnyness with you all, but unfortunately I can't remember what it was that we found so amusing! Easter dinner was nice though. We stuffed our faces, but made sure to save room for the chocolate mousse cake and coffee cake that we caught a glimpse of for dessert. So we watched sex and the city between dinner and dessert and it's such a shame that the show is over. they had an episode about everything and they were so dead on! oh well, on demand will have to satisfy our needs...that and i need to collect the 5 boxed sets!
so stacy is a working woman now, except she's the real kind where i'm the pretend kind. see, she goes tow ork every morning and when she gets there, she actually has things to do besides update other people's live journals. i, on the other hand, update other people's live journals all day. and by "other people's" i mean stacy's. and by all day i mean this is the first time i've done it since i've started my job 3 weeks ago.
stacy dyed her hair! it's darker than i'm used to but it looks hot (surprise surprise...) what else is new with stacy? she's looking for a nice apartment in morristown or some other town in that area that i forget. my stacy is all growed up and looking for her own place. let me wipe the tear from my eye...ok got it.
yeah, so we are the coolest. we talk on our headsets every morning and today, as a matter of fact, we determined that you may not have to hold the phone to talk when you use a headset, but you have to fumble around to put the earpiece in your ear and then to answer the phone when it rings. they need to modify this stuff :op ok, so this entry wasn't very entertaining, but that's only because both stacy and i have bad memories and couldn't remember the funy thing from easter. ah well, better luck next time!
|Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004|
|Guess who's back?
Back again? That's right, it's Niki! I took a brief reprieve from the joys of updating Stacy's journal, but worry not...I'm back!
So one thing I would like to comment on is my first trip "out". Stacy came to pick me up and we went shopping at Kohl's and tried on some clothing (what else is new?) and that was followed by the ritualistic trip to taco bell. that's right, some things never change...including *burp* A *burp* A *burp* A...Let me explain...did you ever see Billy Madison where the kid burps the alphabet? Well, he says letters WHILE he's burping...the word WHILE is key here. Now whenever I drink soda around stacy i try to imitate this phenomenon. i usually don't get very far in the alphabet, but that's ok...stacy only ever makes it to A. She burps, then says "A" and the next time she burps she says A again...after the event. it's still adorable though and we'll continue to do it...well, probably forever!
ok so like i was saying, after taco bell we went to the mall and tried on prom dresses. there was actually a pink one i liked (i probably should've told you to sit before i made that comment)! surprisingly we didnt get anything pierced. maybe we'll do that before i go to texas and before stacy starts her fancy new job. i'm so proud of my girl and so excited for her. i think she's gonna have so much fun at newsweek and meet so many new people and just grow so much...i can't wait to share all that with her! even if she's physically 2.5 hours away that won't stop our weekend extravaganzas or our morning updates while we sit in traffic...boooo traffic!
so anyway, i don't want to get sappy, but i just want to tell stacy (in her own journal) how much her support has meant to me the past 2 months. you coming to visit and talking on the phone never failed to brighten my day and you really helped me keep my sanity when i thought i was gonna go crazy with all the bad stuff that kept happening. you helped me see the light at the end of the tunnel when i thought there was only blackness ahead...and you kept me connected to the outside world...so thank you for being the best friend i could ever ask for :o)
|Monday, March 22nd, 2004|
Yay for a new job!
Yay for my life actually beginning!
Yay for a future!
Yay for moving out Real soon!
Yay for niki coming home!
Yay for all of my friends!
Yay for hanging out with one of my Ex-es and our newfound friendship!
Yay for new work clothing!
Yay for the first day of Spring and almost Spring-like weather!
Yay for going to the gym for 3 weeks straight!
Yay for my sister moving out June 1!
Yay for having things to Yay about!
|Tuesday, February 24th, 2004|
|A reason to write
probably the most wonderful feeling in the entire world has been watching niki make such an incredible recovery. she is amazing and i am so unbelievably proud of her. she is inspiring and i admire her perseverence.
My niki is coming back to me and finally the emptiness i had been feeling in my heart is going away.
|Wednesday, December 10th, 2003|
I've been coming to this site every day hoping to see an update, but apparently Miss Stacy actually has to do work this week, so I assume that's why the LJ hasn't been updated. Being the great friend that I am, I decided to take the liberty and update it, if for no other reason than to entertain myself. (If you haven't yet guessed, this is Niki - surprise!)
So what's new? I'm going through Stacy withdrawl. I mean, yeah, we have our daily phone calls to say goodmorning...and even on my day off I made sure to turn my phone on so I could hear when Stacy called...and we entertain eachother over AIM (and my boyfriend entertains her too - how cute?!) but it just isn't the same. It's bad when you can't go a weekend without seeing someone. It's ok, absence makes the heart grow fonder right? Well, this weekend is gonna be a blast! Friday we'll just have a nice relaxing candlelit pizza dinner and rent some adam sandler movies (haha who else?) and then i'll wake up for my final at 6:30 saturday morning and then we'll play till sunday.
Stuck on You comes out on friday! wouldn't it be cool if we were stuck together? well, we kinda are, but physically I mean. I don't know...i think it'd be fun for a few hours and then it'd get annoying...or would it? Haha...another option for a halloween costume if we can't find the orange and blue tuxedos?? We're the coolest! Ok, well I'm supposed to put together a presentation with my group in about 2 minutes so I guess I should go find out if they're here, huh?
Sorry for a pretty boring entry...the next one will be much better...I just wanted to leave you in suspense...drooling in anticipation of the next time I update! I'm sure there will be plenty to write about after this weekend...oh, and just so you know, Stacy, you have to take on those extra 6 numbers I was supposed to have...I have faith in you...8 more before the year's up. My prediction? Three this weekend ;o) You can do it man...all night long! O:o) Current Mood: dirty
|Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003|
ive come to the conclusion:
i'm not happy.
outwardly i may seem like i am ok. but in actuality i'm not ok. i'm really sad, but i've just gotten so damn good at hiding it that i only realize how sad i am when i unexpectedly start tearing/crying.
i dont know how to let go and move on. i've never been good at that, this i know... i wish i knew what was right for me to do. cut off completely? or do what i'm doing now, which is.. actually i dont know what im doing now.
im really really tired of all of this and i wish i didnt care.
and this is only part of what makes me sad...
and i dont want to do this anymore
|Monday, December 1st, 2003|
well, its been a really nice mini vacation, i wish it didnt have to end. but i guess its good that im getting back to work. i need my body to get used to a normal person's work/sleep/eating/excersing schedule.
so to recap my week, for all of those who read this (hmm, probably only niki and she was with me everyday anyway,) but just in case there are a couple of stragglers. is that a word??
tues found niki and me at the knight club, where else.. :-P we had a really great time and met some cool people, one of whom won't call me eventhough he asked me for my number, but its all good. i know how the game goes. anyway, we had a great time dancing with them. wed i somehow rolled my lazy ass out of bed and went to work. i think i only worked like 3 hours but it was imperative that i got home asap so that i could get my energy revived for the next few nights of debauchery (thats the second time i've used that word now). so wednesday i got to see goldy for a little and then that night niki and i went over to nemo's to party it up with some old school monroevians. we spent the majority of the night with derek and barcley but i did bond a little with some people i hadnt seen since h.s graduation, always interesting and somewhat of a self esteem booster, yay for that! we went to garveys and then docs, got super silly drunk and had a good time all round. *NUMBER 34......*
::cough cough:: anyway :-P
thurs was turkey day and as usual i was in brooklyn with the fam. at dinner my cousin announced his secret marriage two weeks ago to his girlfriend.hmmm yes, we were all very very surprised. well, welcome to the family, Lina. that night i went to the seville with goldy, sah, and josh. always fun reminicising and talking about how much life sucks now and how we're going to be viewed as total dorks when we have kids, NEVER!! i will always be cool. riiiight....
friday was shopping with niki and knight club for randi's birthday. again, another fun time. although i did get a little tired and cranky at the end of the night. oops.
saturday was more shopping. needless to say i didnt buy anything. which is actually a good thing. and saturday night was low key with niki derek barcley and people we didnt talk to.. ha ha...
sunday i was an absolute waste, and proud of it!! although i did get into a rather extensive conversation with my mother about my future.. i know i am not putting enough effort out to get a job, and i dont want to be bothered.. im a waste.. all i want for christmas, er... chanukkah is a full time job and i think i will get it from the h.s. but hopefully sooner rather than later.
blah blah, so work has been going super duper slow today. dan isnt here :-( that makes me sad. but all of my bosses are back, its great how much they love me. i think chris, the other guy i work with is jealous at how much my bosses adore me. :-)
i dont know how im up and functioning right now. it took me about 3 hours to fall asleep last night and i was having the freakiest dreams. stupid unconscience.. ( did i spell that right?)
i cant wait until the day that i am ready to move out and get my own place. hmmm. soon...
|Sunday, November 30th, 2003|
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs. What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla
|Wednesday, November 26th, 2003|
In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: nope
02. Bought something: nope. wait, maybe lunch- yesterday
03. Gotten sick: yes
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: yes
06. Been kissed: hmmm...
07. Felt stupid: what day did i drop a weight on my head at the gym? oh yeah, monday...
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: i dont know.. im thinking no
09. Met someone new: yes
10. Moved on: meaning?
11. Talk to an ex: no
12. Missed an ex: hmm. lets see yesterday i thought about jay, and today i was reading someone else's web site and i thought about him, and then i think about someone else in cali. sure i miss people
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: maybe
14. Had a serious talk: yes
15. Missed someone: yes
16. Hugged someone: yes
17. Fought with your parents: yes, monday.. ugh
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: not recently. and recently meaning not in the past few days
01. Best girl friend: best? ahhh!! i cant choose. Niki, Kimmy, Jessie, Jessica, Jayme, Sarah. (those are the top)
02. Best guy friend: again, i have to choose? well josh is a definite. he's the closest guy to me and very important.
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope
04. If no, current dating partner: i like to keep my options open
05. Hobbies: working out, dancing, movies, laughing, having fun
06. Pager: nope
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: can be both
08. What type automobile do you drive: 2002 honda civc ex RUBY
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: im content with my baby
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: depends. if its a date with someone im really into then i would be up for some one on one action. but friends are always a guaranteed good time
11. Where is the best hangout: my bed ha ha, j/k anywhere with the right people
12. Do you have a job: yes
13. Do you attend church: grrr! what about us jewish people. TEMPLE
14. Do you like being around people: yes most of the time. but being alone has its endearing qualities too
01. Have you known the longest: Jayme, then Jessie, then Jessica
02. Do you argue the most with: parents. Mom
03. Do you always get along with: Kimmy and i have had the least amount of fights out of all of my friends. but i get along really well with all of my best buddies
04. Is the most trustworthy: see the names above for best girl friends
05. Makes you laugh the most: niki is so silly. but all of my friends
06. Has been there through all the hard times: all my friends have stood by my side
07. Has the coolest parents: matt's parents. i think niki agrees
08. Has the coolest siblings: sarah's sis and bros are pretty unique
09. Is the most blunt: prob me
10. Is the smartest: niki
01. Who is your role model: mom and dad
02. What are some of your pet peeves: people who dont listen and people who are not honest
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: probably. but i never took the plunge so who knew if i had a real chance or not
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yes
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: yea, ones that dont work out.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): probably
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: thought about it.. wouldnt do it
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: neither
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship, im tired of random hookups
10. Want someone you don't have right now: yes, but ive accepted it.. or at least am trying
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: in 8th grade
12. Do you want to get married: eventually
13. Do you want kids: eventually
14. Do you believe in psychics: not really
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: who knows, could be someone from my past or could be someone i have yet to meet
16. Wht do you think is the best part of your physical appearance? smile
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: im in tune with my emotions
18. Are you happy with you: for the most part, trying to work on some of my flaws
19. Are you happy with your life: partly
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: a career i love and my own place
so tired... had a late night last night and had to get up this morning for work. my body hurts. and i still want to get to the gym after work today and then see some people before i head out for another night of debauchery.
sah came home on mon and came over for a few hours. :-) then niki came home yesterday and the two of us went to the knight club. fun times. met some really cool guys and i hope i get to see them again. damn, did they know how to dance. niki and i are still waiting for our sugar sugar.. soon..
today ill prob see sharon for a little and maybe goldy before we all go out tonight. hmmm... not sure how i feel about seeing everyone from monroe again.. we'll see how it goes. im looking forward to hanging out with niki and derek and barcley.
so we have terminator 3 on in the office but i never saw 2 and i only saw parts of 1, who's lost? ME ew blood and guts... yucky movie.
lets se, anything new and interesting? um... nope. just working and hanging out and not giving myself enough sleep.
my mind is a mess still but im functioning and slowly starting to make sense of things. s-l-o-w-l-y... one day it will all make sense. but i guess im ok for now.
alright im bored with this entry..
|Monday, November 24th, 2003|
"leave in silence"
u get the idea.
and thats just the way it has to be for now, i think.
back at work, passing the time with an update. work isnt going too slow so thats a plus. and im only working three days this week then i get to play with all of my friends and hopefully meet some new people. should be interesting to see how this week/weekend turns out. i might get closer to my goal that niki and i set.
they say when it rains it pours.. and its true. in terms of social life stuff... its not like there's a lot of new people that are definites but it seems like there's a few whom could be potentials* hmmmm.. always interesting.
there's this kid my friend wants to hook me up with. he looks like JT, he's hot and in a band and tall and into music (obviously,) and funny and lives nearby. we already talked the other day. we'll see how it goes. and what was that quote niki? "if he looks like JT i'm going to lick him.." ha ha yea, that was it.. and that is true.
anyway, weekend was half good half bad. niki and i decided we needed to see other people so we didnt have plans to get together this weekend. friday i went to gaebels with laurie and met up with daniel, derek, sophia, shawn, and then some others. it was a pretty good time and everyone in gaebels was absolutely gorgeous. my brain was overly stimulated. niki, we need to go there on friday nights and talk to everyone, and try to wipe the drool from our mouths.. mmmmmm. nice.
saturday i hung around the house and got in a bad mood, called niki on the phone 100 times. both of us were in shit moods because of dumb people. then i told her to get in the car and just get to my house to come to the party with me that night. well 1 hour later my doorbell rings and niki is standing there with a white light around her!!! yay for getting happy again. we drove to south orange to go to matt's house for his 23rd and it was so much fun. his parents rock and his friends were all really nice. too bad i have to stay away from guys with their names starting with the letter D. he was cute.... tee hee. yay for turning into a girl when there is a cute boy around. (sorry u had to witness that niki)
then we all walked to this really cool bar in his town. they had karaoke!! niki and i sang and so did joshy and i. so much fun!!!
got home at 4 a.m. after some propositioning. :-P ha ha but its all good.
sunday was family lunch for bubbe's birthday and i got to see jessie!!! it was really cool to see her and catch up with her. always pick up right where we left off. and now here i am back at work and its almost lunch time already. yippee skippee although i refuse to eat.
looking forward to kicking my ass at the gym today.
and then this week i get to see Sarah, Jessica, Kimmy again, Niki again, and probably everyone else who graduated 10 years before me a 2 years after me. should be good times. ok im done.
|Friday, November 21st, 2003|
|Usually around this time...
I'd be excited to finish my last class of the day and then I'd run to catch the train home so I could wait for Stacy to come over, or hop in the car to go to Stacy's house. But this weekend is different. We're on a temporary hiatus. But it's ok, because I'll be back home on Tuesday so we can make up for lost time then :o) (Incase you haven't already guessed, this is Niki updating)
I can't believe Thanksgiving is next week! Where has the time gone?! I hope when I help make the turkey I remember to take out the gizzard...otherwise I'll have to call Stacy to come cut up the turkey for me just like with that stupid chicken! :oP Poor thing...no wonder it took so long to cook. ewwww. So Stacy may get to hang out with a navy boy this weekend...welcome to my world! Men in uniform are just so hot. Police officers, mailmen (ok, maybe not mailmen), fire fighters, army, navy, marines...they're all hot! I don't know what it is about a man in uniform, but keep wearin em boys! Could we have another repeat? :oO How many have we had so far? Hmm...1...2? Only two? Three is a charm ;o)
So what else is next week? Monroe reunion at whatever bar is "the spot" this year...I'm excited because now I can finally go. I can't believe I had to wait a whole year just about between when Stacy turned 21 and when I did...we should just be born on the same day so we never have to wait. Next thing you know, you'll be able to rent a car and I won't...and after that, you'll be able to get into the movies for a senior citizens price and I won't! Haha little jump in time there :oP
Oh, so funniness...I was trying to remember what was the "that's going in lj" or "that's going up in the profile/away message" but i can't! why? we were laughing so hard at the time! I remember one of them had to do with the bathroom and not wanting to get out of bed and making nouns into verbs (i'll spare you the gorey details) and another one had to do with us still sitting in bed bonding once we have daughters and our daughters would have to join us...we're so weird, but so cool all at the same time. Oh NO! Who's gonna eat taco bell with me on sunday for lunch?! am i gonna have to go by myself?
haha, ok well we'll have to update our weekends by ourselves this weekend, but fear not...we'll have plenty to update after this coming holiday week/weekend ;o)
I like the way you move...new favorite song of the week...but it did NOT replace suga suga...that's become an all-time favorite...a close second to summer jam!
|Wednesday, November 19th, 2003|
you're not playing hard to get if you tell the girl, "I'm doing this to play hard to get"
oy.. where do i find these smoothe guys... :-P
i see: through a glass darkly
i need: to focus on myself
i want: to be happy
i have: alot of wonderful friends
I wish: i knew what i wanted to do with my career (or lack there of)
I love: warm sunny weather
I hate: being sad
I miss: him
I fear: losing loved ones
I feel: my stomach hurting
I bear: a hell of alot
I hear: 80's music
I smell: coffee
I crave: nothing.. food =yuck
I search: for answers
I wonder: how this will all end
I regret: nothing
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
smiled? a few minutes ago
laughed? a few minutes ago
bought something? sunday
danced? sat night
were sarcastic? anytime i open my mouth
kissed someone? few weeks ago
talked to an ex? week ago
watched your favourite movie? over the weekend
had a nightmare? last week
A LAST TIME FOR EVERYTHING...
last book you read: currently reading "Prozac Nation"
last movie you saw: Fight Club
last song you heard: some really bad 80's song
last thing you had to drink: coffee
last time you showered: last night after the gym
last thing you ate: girl scout cookie
|Tuesday, November 18th, 2003|
and here i sit... the fool...
the one thinking about you...
the only one thinking about us
do i need to remind u of my name again
apparently im the loser again. and again and again..
didnt i used to be strong? why am i the one who lost?
|Monday, November 17th, 2003|
sun morning: wake up to find a voice message from a guy saying he's one of my guy friends (uses a particular name) and says that he misses me, wants me back in his life, and in his bed.
since phone was off i dont know the number of who called.
piss me off...
|Sunday, November 16th, 2003|
|justin timberlake on acid
yeah, so the above title could pretty much describe my weekend here at niki's. (its a good thing!!) and even cooler than that, im still here. but i have to leave in a few hours and that makes both niki and myself sad.... ok but now for the happy stuff
made record time again coming down here on friday. had to deal with some psycho drivers on the turnpike but nothing my little ruby and i couldnt handle. and after an enjoyable ride listening to my new kick ass home made cd the entire time there was no better way to finish off than with a delicious dinner with niki and derek. :-) mmmmmm
after fooding and bonding and dancing and being silly the three of us headed into old city to take over the bars. we bar hopped as usual. found ourselves at lucys, a bar that we always go to but i cant remember the name, and maybe a few others but now i cant remember anything. guess it meant that was a good night. niki took care of me when we were waiting for the train and when we were on the train. :-) she rubbed my back the entire time. awwww... and no i wasnt drunk.. :-P officer i swear to drunk im not g-d...
the only sad thing about the night was that i did not get to the share niki's bed with her... but i guess i need to learn to share niki. :-) he he its cool. at least i was able to sleep naked and have wild dreams without wondering if the person next to me would be tthinking that im a sex fiene.. damn, now all of u know... any takers???
saturday found us waking up at the ass crack of dawn, as per usual... niki made pancockies??? for breakfast and then the three of us went to see Love Actually. it kicked ass. niki and i cant stop talking about it and i cant wait to either see it again or buy it on dvd when it comes out...
c'mon lets get the shit kicked out of us by love.... so true so true.. so after niki and i sobbed like freakin babies at all the mushy love scenes it was time to come back home eat dinner, and get ready for a night of dancing. oh, first we had to say goodbye to derek.
so niki and i decided to go to topdog for the night. we checked out the live cover band downstairs that didnt even come close to comparing to 39 mariner. then we went upstairs to listen to every good song get turned to shit when the DJ decided to add a damn club beat.. and this is where JT on acid comes into play... so after dancing with some men and some guys we retired ourselves to downstairs to stare at boys and unfortunately have two asshole guys come over to us. one who thought it would be cool to pretend he doesnt understand the word no.. so after threatening to punch him in the eye i looked at niki and said i wanted to leave them. at that point we were tired and it was time to call it a night. STUPID BOY!!!
slept until 5 a.m. no j/k maybe more lik 8 or 9.. got the the mall before it opened and then spent all of our money at taco bell and weathervane. mmmm tacos... what the hell did niki do to me??? eventually came back home.. went running and to her cute little gym. made friends with rick and now we're showered and relaxing some more.. soon its pizza time and then ill have to depart.. :-(
i may as well move in. niki and i spend 3 days straight together every single weekend and never get sick of one another. we always have so much fun together and it just makes sense... hmmm working on it.
ok so i know that niki and i said like a million funny quotes this weekend and everytime something was said, i would say, "ooh, gotta put that in my lj and in my profile" but of course i forgot all of them.. DAMN!! well if i rem ill edit or update this thing. ok i need to leave this room now. im allergic to a chair.
|Friday, November 14th, 2003|
|yay for more quizzes to pass the time
Three things that scare me:
1: the unknown (also see below)
3: driving on the turnpike when you cant see out the windshield and all the trucks are speeding by, blasting water in every which way and honking at you because you're going to slow while on the radio they issue a tornado wanring for that exact location.
Three people who make me laugh:
Three Things I love:
3: connecting with people
Three Things I hate:
1: being sick
2: getting hurt
3: mean people
Three things on my desk:
3: red floppy disk from dan that says "<3 you"
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: answering phones
2: talking to shawn
3: looking at ambercrombie and fitch online
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: pick up and leave.. live somewhere alone or with a friend
2: travel the world or country
3: fall in love and get married
Three ways to describe my personality:
Three things I can't do:
1: give myself a break
2: stand on my head and make love to the lochness monster
3: grow a mustache
|Tuesday, November 11th, 2003|
today would have been 6 months for david and me. i wonder if he realizes it. but for some weird reason it still is 6 months for us. we're not 'not together' but we're not together.. does that make sense? no...??? well thats how i feel too.
i just wish he could read this damn website so he could know what im thinking and how i feel. what was that? talk to him about it? hmm, let me think about that option, um... ok that would be a negative.. see, stacy doesnt like opening up and making herself vulnerable when she's not sure how she is going to be received and in this case i am completely clueless. i hate these games.
ok i dont feel like typing anymore. so i leave you with some lyrics that seem to have been written for me.. because i kind of have a thing for music in case u didnt know.
"A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate they disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but youre still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but youre still with me in my dreams And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go..."